I think I’m in love. But I’m not sure. I know you never fall I. Love the same way. But it doesn’t feel like it did that first time. And I want it too. But I know it can only feel like that with that person. And that’s so fucked because I don’t love her anymore. And it took me so fucking long to stop. And I want to give my whole heart to Christina and not be a shitty boyfriend and person for the first time in my life. But I can’t give her my whole heart. A tiny piece is, just so tiny belongs to the first. And I’m scared to take it back.